| Location | Yorkhill, Glasgow |
| Age | 1 month, 10 days |
| Cause of Death | Rare Heart Condition |
| Date of Birth | 14/07/2009 |
| Date of Death | 24/08/2009 |
| Visitors | 4,064 since 25/10/2009 |
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Samuel is my first baby. His heart condition was only discovered when I was 38 weeks pregnant. I was measuring small for 4 weeks and so had to go for a growth scan. The sonographer had issues getting a good view of the heart and thought it was just Samuel's position. It was the same when I had my 20 week scan, optimal views of the heart weren't possible and I had to go to hospital 4 times yet the last one they wrote sub optimal views of the 4 chambers. His heart condition could have been picked up then. I was referred to Yorkhill Sick Children's Hospital where a specialist scanned me and we were eventually told Samuel had a rare heart condition Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome.
A week later on 14th July 2009 I was induced and Samuel was born at 2244 after a 6 hour labour. I was allowed to hold him for a few minutes and then he was taken away to NICU. My partner went to see him for an hour and I was allowed to see him once I'd slept.
Samuel had his operation Stage one Norwood procedure with Shano shunt on Monday 20th July. His operation was highly successful and the only issue was he had an infection in his wound so was reopened and cleaned out. He was transferred to PICU after his operation. Samuel was taking longer than other babies would to come off the ventilator and then CPAP onto nose cannula but I think it was a combination of Samuel and the fact that the hospital had never cared for a baby with Samuel's condition after the first operation before so they were being over cautious and I'm thankful for that. Samuel was then moved to High Dependancy which was just one step away from going up to the ward to be discharged. He was doing so well and was weaned off all his drugs apart from morphine which he was on a weaning schedule for. We were hoping he'd be home just soon after the morphine was finished. The one night my partner left me alone to secure us a new house for coming out of hospital, Samuel's heart stopped beating. Saturday 22nd August between 3am and 5am he had to have his heart massaged to keep it going. He was put onto ECMO to give him the best possible chance.
We were told that due to his heart stopping for 2 hours there was a high possibility that he was severely brain damaged. I continued for the weekend in denial that this wasn't the case and hoped Samuel would be that small percentage that survived. On the Sunday night we learned Samuel was highly brain damaged and wouldn't survive. His heart was working but his brain was deprived of oxygen. He was transfered into a private room and me and my partner stayed with him all night until the morning while they weaned him off the ECMO machine. He died peacefully in my arms at 1008 Monday 24th August aged 40 days. Those 40 days were the best days of my life and I thank Sam each and every day for giving us the time with him. I am also devastated at losing the love of my life but I shall never ever forget him. He's far too special to me. I wish everyone got to meet him.
Saying goodbye was the hardest thing to do
A cheeky smile, a grumpy frown, memories of you
Mummy and Daddy both so proud
Unknowing of the future we treasured every moment
Eternally grateful for the times we had
Love will continue in our hearts, our memories, our thoughts and forever in our dreams.
Samuel, you were such a beautiful boy
You brought us both such joy
Every single day we spent
Our love would grow and grow
Each little sneeze, each tiny grump
Every pee and every poo
The way you looked when Daddy sang
Or when Mummy danced with you
Your tiny hands and ticklish feet
Your fingers, thumbs and toes
Your furrowed brow and giant eyes
Each of these a memory left
To help remind us both of you
Never again will we giggle as you hiccup
Or laugh as we watch you sneeze
Never again will we see you squirm, or wriggle like a worm
But even though this has gone, one thing still remains
Our memories forever strong, never lessening with age
You are our precious little boy, our grumpasaurus rex
Please remember this, as it's true
Mummy and Daddy both love you
Apologies to the kind people wishing to leave pictures. I would prefer to just have images of Samuel in my photo album I just love seeing his face. I hope you understand.
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merry christmas
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Free the butterflies-
I'll be there
to see them soar
upon the air.
Know my spirit
is on the wing,
feel my laughter-
hear me sing.
Forever in your dreams
always in your heart.
Fran LeMasters
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~R.I.P~ Angel xxxx
ღ ღ ღ ღ All My Love Beautiful Angel ღ ღ ღ ღ
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How will heaven be?
As far as I can see
It will have huge bells
And will be situated on clouds
It will have many golden wells
That will so often swell
Rain will be abundant
And the sun will shine all day long
Angels will play on the harp
The sweetest summer song
Music that will touch the heart
While those beneath will shed drops of sorrow
Little will they know what will happen on the morrow
But to them up above
As plain and clear it will be
As far as far as I can see
Yes there will be misty alleys
And lush green meadows
Fresh with the fragrant smell of spring
Winter will never be bitter
Summer never so hot
Autumn never so bare
And resources never so scarce
Food for all will be relished by all.
Grateful we’ll be as grateful can be
Mountains high and strong and brown
Surrounding that hidden land,
Beautiful and vast seas I see
There colour as blue as sapphire can be
And the white waves lashing upon the shore
Sitting on the flattened grey rocks
Who would not call it absolutely heavenly?
However it might actually be,
But can we still not see
There will lie behind this seen
A relieving feeling of bliss
For where not have we been
But is this not by all believed
That after one’s decease
This is the land of eternal peace
Where we all ultimately reach?
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~~Grieving Mother~~
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We have shared our tears and our sorrow
we have given encouragement to each other
given hope for a brighter tomorrow
we share the title of GRIEVING MOTHER ~~
Some of us lost older daughters or sons
who we watched grow over the years
some have lost their babies before their lives begun
but no matter the age, we cry the same tears ~~
We understand each others pain
the bond we share is very strong
with each other there is no need to explain
the path we walk is hard and long ~~
Our children brought us together
they didn't want us on this journey alone
they knew we needed each other
to survive the pain of them being gone ~~
So take my hand my friend
we may stumble and fall along the way
but we'll get up and try again
because together we can make it day by day ~~
We can give each other hope
we'll create a place where we belong
together we will find ways to cope
because we are angel mums
and together we are strong ~~
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